Today was one of the best days I've had in a while. 
[You 3 are my bests.]
Pretty faces, beautiful places, sunny day, blue ocean, 
$5 mittens, Rusted Root<3, Red Bank, bridges...
I really love where I'm at right now & what I have. Tomorrow will be nice, too.
"Dismiss whatever insults your soul." & you will feel free. 

Happy Birthday, Josh! I hope you have a wonderful year. Keep on' keepin on.

 This is what you shall do:
 Love the earth and sun, and animals, despise riches, give alms to every one that asks,
 stand up for the stupid and crazy, devote your income and labor to others, hate tyrants, 
 argue not concerning God, have patience and indulgence towards the people, 
 take off your hat to nothing known or unknown, or to any man or number of men; 
 go freely with the powerful uneducated persons, and with the young, and mothers, of families: 
 read these leaves in the open air every season of every year of your life: re-examine all you 
 have been told at school or church, or in any books, and dismiss whatever insults your soul. 
 & your very flesh shall be a great poem, and have the richest fluency, not only in its
 words, but in the silent lines of its lips and face, and between the lashes of your 
 eyes, and in every motion and joint of your body.

                                                                            - Whitman 


Here is a big fuck you to anyone who has done so.
Every word of that is so real. Words to live by.
Stan & Dana, you listen to me entirely too much.
Love you both. Christina, Eric, Dave, Lauren, Josh,
& Kyle <3 You're the best.  For the first time, I've 
experienced "what goes around comes around."


PS:
        PolokTheLegend: i don't mind
        PolokTheLegend: everyone needs to take a giant dump
        PolokTheLegend: otherwise they just fart a lot
        aciDic tiDes: hell yeah that was the biggest shit ever.
        PolokTheLegend: and smell like it
        PolokTheLegend: and their butt hurts
        aciDic tiDes: bahaha i smelt like fart!
           ^ Best metaphor ever.

I always come to write & never know what to say.
All is well. I need a real update.
:D

Today, I'll be flying to Heathrow, England
@ 1:25 in the morning. Or, 6:25 a.m. there.
& then I'll sit in Heathrow for 3 hours, 
& then leave for Munich @ 4:15 a.m,
or perhaps 9:15 there. Finally,
I'll be in Munich @ 6:05, or 12:05 there.
Hello, eleven hour flight.
Here's my itinerary (some of you asked).
Google some of these places, they're awesome.
♥♥♥

July 03: 
Overnight flight to Germany.
Fly to Munich, Germany.

July 04:
Munich.
Meet your Tour Director & check into hotel.
Munich city walk.
Hofbrauhaus dinner.
           
July 05: 
Munich Landmarks.
BMW headquarters.
Olympic site of 1972.
Olympic Tower visit.
Dachau Concentration Camp visit.

July 13:
Fly from Vienna, Austria.

( I leave you with these: )

Finally, I found a a dress that I'm in love
with for Kourtni Jade's Birthday. I wish
I could wear it to hers & Nikki+Tracy's
party. Because their's is a black & white
party... but too many of the same homies
will be there. I DON'T WANT TO TAKE IT OFF.
I love itttttt. It's not as short as it looks in the picture.
I'll do it up with pearls. I'd wear heels, but that would
make me a giant. That's no good. This is completely
pointless to write about, sorry. I do have like 100+
pictures to post of all Spring Break & stuff. I'll do
that when I have more time. <3 Until then ...

& maybe some company would be nice. We fell asleep
the other night watching a show about jail. I've been so
run down lately. Just tired. I have lots to update; but not
enough time. More later. All is well, minus health. I'll
update with more relevant stuff later though; stay good.

Mind you; 4 more days until we can all get loose & lazy.

You're a part full time lover and a full time friend
The monkey on you're back is the latest trend
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you...

I kiss you on the brain in the shadow of a train
I kiss you all starry eyed, my body's swinging from side to side
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you...

Here is the church and here is the steeple
We sure are cute for two ugly people
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you...
 
I will find my niche in your car
With my mp3- DVD rumple-packed guitar
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you...

Du du du du du du dudu
Up up down down left right left right B A start
Just because we use cheats doesn't mean we're not smart
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you...

You are always trying to keep it real
I'm in love with how you feel
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you...

We both have shiny happy fits of rage
You want more fans, I want more stage
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you...
 
Squinched up your face and did a dance
You shook a little turd out of the bottom of your pants
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
Du du du du du du dudu 

You take the lines from ordinary books.
You're disappointed in the way she looks.
You cut the circulation to your hand.
& calculate the motion of the land.

Then you, fall back asleep,
and wander down the street that loses you.
Don't say you feel the same way too...
Honey, I don't think you do.

You cut the worms and bait them on the hooks.
You cast a line towards the closest brooks.
You meet the girl who says she knows the plan.
You act impressed and say you understand.
'Cause you, like to believe, that all that love is free.
Oh, someone like you, will never be lonely, or get the blues
but darlin', it's not true.

RANT: I'm sick & tired of hearing about drugs. It's all I've been hearing about lately. I'm sick and tired of worrying. I’m just watching out for them/you/him/her. I'm tired of staying at home sometimes wondering how my friends are making out... It’s upsetting.

Let's see...
- New LJ Layout
[html codes got screwed so re-did all.]
- Second Valentine's Day with my Mikey.
[God, I love the hell out of him; he's got no idea.]
- Made him a washtub bass.
[He seems to love.]
- Pat's Surprise Party.
[Success!]
- Visited the old egg farm behind my house w/ Amanda
[those are the creepy pictures i'll post.]
- N.Y.C w/ Lindsey & parents.
[Madam Tuessades & RENT on Broadway]
-First Snow Day of the school year.
[Went sledding @ Windward with good people.]
-Mike's mini Birthday party.
[With lots of good company.]
-Started Alto Saxophone lessons again.
[Remembering it all fast & I see Stan every Wednesday.]
- What About Frank, A Love Like Pi & Red Bank.
[Mike, Andy, Ashlee, Jess, Flynn, Jean, Darryl, Kelsie]
- Awful Waffle @ The Log Cabin & White Castle!!!
[Lots of new songs & bags of chicken rings.]
- Wrote a Children’s Book allllll today.
[never again, took so damn long.]  

( & together, we're stronger than that. )

Come clean, all of you.
You're growing eerie.

To yourself, to what you are;

Stop saying you don't...

when you do.

Stop saying you aren't...

when you are.

I hope you all over ate as much as I did today. I feel so fat. I even had to pull of a “New York V”. My family wasn’t going to go to my grandparent’s house this year for the reason that we had a brawl with them not too long ago, but I’m glad we did. I never had beef anyways, it was everyone else. There was 10 of us. Every year in school I am forced to make at least one list of stuff I’m thankful for. I didn’t have to this year. So I’ll just say I’m thankful for a lot. Basically everything in my life that is tangible & even emotions. For my friends, my family, Mike, just a lot that I probably shouldn’t get into detail about. Everything is just good. Anyways...

My grandma is my favorite cook ever; nonetheless, the best cook. I made 34 deviled eggs. They were really yummy. My grandma always makes everything in such timing so that everything is still hot, and everything is perfect. She sits down after we’ve all eaten our turkey and taters. Her meal is always cold. It’s like the mom in A Christmas Story- same concept. My uncle, cousins & I went for a walk cause we were full & he kept farting every time he stepped on his right foot, hahaha. My family is so twisted, gross & fun. I love it. I took some pictures of the night.

Last night, Stan came & got me and then we went to Amanda’s, then back to Stan’s house to play Guitar Hero, guitar, and just chill. They performed “Artist in the Ambulance” for me. It sounded good. We went to Wawa as usual, too. Chai latte spilt all over my crotch. It burned. Then, I went home. I was supposed to be at either Skanksgivng to see Mikey & all of Awful Waffle, but I couldn’t make it due to ride failure & then Lindsey & I were supposed to see Gogol Bordello, Bad Religion & Anti-flag but she went to Florida & no one else could. ::sigh:: I missed my chance. They won’t be around for at least a year; they’ll all be in the UK. My report card was pretty good. I made Honor Roll. My lowest grade was an 86 in Mr. Pierce’s Bio class and everything else was from a 90-95. Not bad. I’m doing better than last year, I think.

Because it’s tradition, I believe I’ll be at Ocean County Mall tomorrow night & Mikey will be here during the day for Black Friday. I’m happy because he couldn’t make it today. Saturday I might be going ice skating with Stan, Amanda and whoever knows else at Winding River [finally.] Decembers coming right around the corner. I think know I’m having a Christmas party. I’ll give details to you all individually, I suppose. I think it will be on the 16th. Yeah! Yeah! Yeah! In closure, I hope the rest of your weekend is real nice.

                                                       (  w h i t e r o c k . )

I've got no homework
& lots of time;
so I'm doing a survey
to ease my boredum.

( My baby is so crazy `bout this jazz music. )

Never mind my previous entry. I deleted it because I finally had time to get all of the pictures done. I hope you enjoy all 141 of them.

What’s been going on? It’s been a while since I’ve had a real update. I’m now poor because I’ve been going to too many shows; thus, I picked up a job application for General Stores. Mikey & I had our Fourteen Month Anniversary♥; we went to Carrabba's as usual, and then ran into Jimmy Blair at Cold Stone. At some point, I went to see Saw II with Mikey. We just walked right in. I liked it. I was pretty creeped out. It was too well thought out. Whoever wrote the script & all is pretty fucked in the head; but at the same time- brilliant. I spent the night at Miss. Amanda Bizzle's♥ house last weekend, and we watched Mean Girls & my mommy took us to Wawa. I love this weekend.

Our miniature break has been one of the best. I’ve been busy every single day with friends up until today. On Wednesday, I took Mikey’s bus home. He cancelled his bass lesson, so that was nice.♥  We had plans to go ice skating at Winding River park with others, but their ice-make blew up or something. Everyone went to the mall. I didn’t realize how close Christmas was. A lot of people put up their Christmas trees after Thanksgiving & that is in just a week or two.

Thursday; Mikey & I went out with Lindsey after noon & stayed there till late at night getting ready for the party. I spent the night. I love that girl.  We were so delirious & in hallucination from being tired by the end of the night & while she was setting up the bed, she put every single blanket or sheet in sight on the bed. She kept piling them on and she stopped to look at and was like “Oh!” Retart ♥. We woke up & had a lovely breakfast & went on more errands. She dropped me off at Mikey’s and I got to wake him up. That might just be one of my favorite things to do. He is so cute in the morning, sleepy eyes & boxers are his morning outfit.♥ His mommy wanted to take us out for brunch, so we went to Friendly’s. I had the best Shirley Temple ever. Kourtni would have loved it. He & I spent some of  “our” time finally. We had been going to so many shows & going out with friends so much we didn’t really get much of it.

Then, back to Lindsey’s where we continued setting up for the party & making food & such. The party was great. Everyone had fun; everyone was in a great mood. I came home that night and even went to bed with a smile on my face. Saturday morning came around and plans were made to go Ice Skating. So: Stan, Mike, myself, Isabella, Alex, Gina, Dave, Matt, & Alyssa went. Then Mike & I went back to Dave’s house & chilled. We decided to go to Barnes & Nobles and so we did. We spent most of our time at Best Buy though, playing Guitar Hero. It just might be one of the greatest games ever. It’s so much fun. Today, I just stayed home. It feels kind of nice. I might actually go to Mike’s late though to play Guitar Hero with him & Stan :o] we’ll see. CAN YOU HANDLE ALL 141 OF THESE MOTHERS?!?!?!

      ( While still the other fills a place inside she never knew had room to grow.♥ )

I dug into the Halloween candy. I can’t stop eating Crunch Bars & Smarties. I mean, it’s not like anyone Trick or Treats on the main road of Cherry Quay. They would die or something, it’s a busy road. I don’t know what I’m doing Halloween night. Is anyone going Trick or Treating this year? Last year I went with Kourtni, Mike, Egg and some others & a lot of people asked if we were too old to be. We came up with the theory that when we’re too old, we advance into egg-tactics & smashing pumpkins. Bitches.  I don’t really remember what I did this weekend. It feels like as soon as I complete one full day of school, I forget. I’ll try again...

Ah yes, Ashley’s Seventeenth Birthday party was on Friday. It was so much fun. The girl knows how to shake it. Everyone danced. I even got Mike to dance a little. Andy & Victor showed up out of nowhere. I thought that was kind of humorous? Hmf. On Saturday, I finally saw Amanda. It was so damn good to see her. It’s been too long. Her car smells good. It reminds me of good times. [Philly, visits to my “Special Place” & other random adventures.] Her, Mike & I went to Monmouth Mall where he bought 3 pants [I picked ‘em, too. Sweet corduroys.] & then we went to visit Sir. Tommy [we were dropped off at the massive Narnes & Bobles.] and then we were off to the Record Store on Route 9. I like that place. Every time we say we’re going to leave, we end up staying longer, for at least 15 minutes. I could spend a while in there looking at everything. & as for Sunday, I played it mellow & Mikey & my sister boyfriend Rich came over. We ate KFC & I tickled and snuggled with Mikey while watching Family Guy. I love just hangin’ out. I found new tickle spots. COBRA BOOBIES. Ahem, that’s all. This weekend will be busy. Awful Waffle, Divinity, then more Divinity, maybe Fright Fest and then who knows what.

[Edit: I planned on posting like 40 pictures from Ashley's and other events, but my computer is being really slow... so sorry. This update will be more boring than I intended it to be. I'll try & post pictures tomorrow if it works. =) ]

I worked on this for a long time. It's not even done yet. Don't read if you're not interested. I haven't written anything in a while. I added to this. Maybe I'll pick it up again. It's basically a bunch of thoughts put out in detail about what goes through my mind everyday. It's going to be really long. This is just like, Part I.

Unspoken thoughts depart the mind as eye lids slowly separate,
 equivalent to a barrier in support of a pool of deep green eyes with ability to narrate a story

...
But the story is in secrecy & will only be understood if their disposition is known.
But in the futuristic world that is now, what is not to detect about all beings?
Reading comes easy to most, so effortless to learn a creature’s exterior.
Nevertheless, the possibility of the appearance of exterior may be contrary to the interior.
The story starts here. At this time. In this moment. Now.

Unspoken thoughts depart her mind as eye lids slowly separate,
 equivalent to a barrier in support of a pool of deep green eyes with ability to narrate a story.

Her head slowly rises from her pillow as she shifts her eyes to gaze through glass to view her fresh, new day.

Check; step one to establish her frame of mind for the day. Prophecy: fulfilled.
 She flips and tosses over onto the right side of her body to view a synthetic time, man-made time.

What is time? A cluster of numbers with assigned positions for all to learn and use day after day?
A cluster of numbers in which we all depend on that has developed to be so significant?

A cluster of numbers designed to split up our diminutive life span.
 Seconds. Minutes. Hours. Days. Weeks. Months. Years.

What maintains motivation for a new day?
Check; fine senses in surrounding.
Who brings themselves forward?
Check; a lover, a supporter or perhaps a friend.
When will all and sundry awaken?
Check; first incomplete, subsequently whole.
Where does this day begin?
Check; when it is unblemished to embark on.
How will sundown be welcomed?
Check; however it is built in their hands.



A sense of one’s harmony, a better half of one’s self,

An absent piece of one’s being, an opportunity of one’s untouchable,

A decision of one’s own preference.

 Flip over covers. Every thought. Another minute. Wasting  preparation time.
Step off the front steps to stroll around a microscopic section of the world.
 So delicate, so small. No matter, it’s ours.

                                                                 No matter; it's ours.

I’ve been more neurotic than ever lately; about a lot. & I think so much. I think about silly things that aren’t important, such as what to do to lighten my boredom [rare that I’m ever bored, lately.] and all sorts of stupid things. I’ve been alert. I’ve been paying extra attention to people lately. I’m picking up on things a good number of some people wouldn’t in an average day. You know, little details. Like there’s a notepad inside my brain that’s constantly writing things down. Like, if you were to look at my temple, you could see a reel of film and the film was information I was taking in and you could just see it rolling, eyes looking around and everything. It’s kind of cool, but it puts things in your head that aren’t necessary, things that aren’t your problem, or things that you can’t control. It’s kind of cool because when you’re around your friends, you can just watch them pick out little particulars. Lately, I just want to squeeze the living crap out of everyone I love. Ever get that? I love it. The only people I could probably do that to without thinking I’m a freak is Mike♥, Amanda♥, & Kourtni♥. There might be others? Either way ...

I decided to bag WinMX [stoopid.] and upgrade to sweet, sweet Limewire. I downloaded about fifty songs in one hour, no lie. I can’t stop. I can thank Andy for downloading that on my computer & absolutely making me addicted. I can’t stop listening to Bob Dylan, Guster & Miri Ben-ari. Seriously, check that girl out. She plays violin like no other & is tied into hip-hop. She just might be one of the best living violinists today.

I don't know what to be for Halloween. I need to decide soon. Any ideas?

I was “grounded” this past weekend, or something like that. They told me I would have one day taken away from my weekend.... OH NO’S. So, I took Mike’s bus home.♥ I love that because I get pounced on as soon as I walk in the door... by Doggie♥... and stuff. [hahaha.] He made me dinner. :o] And then Ando came over, and we called Emilyn & we [us 4 and Mikey’s mommy.] ended up going to see Les Claypool.... WHO FUCKING KICKED MY ASS! The man can play some hard-ass bass. It was awesome. The band was comprised by a Sitar player, a Xylophone play, a Saxophonist, a Drummer & Les, himself. It was so damn good. If you were in the crowd, you were either someone who plays bass, a Primus or Les Claypool fan, or you were just some old 45+ person who was either drunk or stoned off their ass “dancing” [more like jumping everywhere.] It was a fun night, we were on our feet for a good 4 hours straight. Poor Mommy was tired and somewhat creeped out by some young drunk dude, so we headed out. It was a great show.

While some of my buddies were at Vitamin P’s on Saturday, I was “grounded.” I told the parental units on Thursday I’d probably stay home Saturday, so they forced me to, instead of staying home Sunday. I read, slept and did an English project. Sunday morning, I was really happy to see the sun was out, so that started my day off right. I can’t believe it rained for a week straight. What the crap is that shit? That night, I went out with Mikey & Stan to Seaside. Mike & I always shotgun front seat when we’re with Stan, and it ends up in disaster. I called ‘Blitz’, and ran to the wrong car [dumbass.] I still managed to make it to Stan’s car, but then Mike opened the door for me, only to sit on me and as Stan drove away [we were still fighting for the death for it] and I fell right on my ass. It’s this game we play every dang time. It’s expected & turns out amusing. We played table hockey [I kicked Mikey’s butt.] and walked around & got cheese fries & fried Oreos. We stopped at Wawa, as usual, on the way home, were I got a butter-drenched buttered roll. I asked for it . I couldn’t believe how deserted it looked at the boardwalk. That was the first time I’ve been to the boardwalk where it was like that. We lost a lot of beach from all of that rain. The waves were choppy. The ocean was so blue, more so than usual. It was chilly. It was perfect.♥ Hoodie-wearing perfect. You could tell my the smell in the air that it was fall. The clouds were gold and the moon was out when the sun was setting. It was beautiful.

 Take  on  and  engage  in  your  life  &  scenery.



But oh, what a wonderful feeling just to know that you are near.

Funny. An old, torn up American flag was ontop of "Tower of Fear."

                    

Things that went down in the past two weeks:

-          Gina’s Sweet Sixteen.

-     Me & Mikey's One Year, One Month [13 months.]♥

-          Sharktar with Mike & Andy at his house.

-     Salsa Night @ Brick Library.

-          Awful Waffle, The Superspecs & Streetlight Manifesto.

-          Diner with Mike, his mommy, Kourtni & my parents.

-          Café in Point with Mikey & then Stan and his friend to see Dad’s side project.

-          Aunt came up from Florida.

-          Barnes & Nobles [the usual.]

-          Mikey came over & fell asleep [again.] heh♥

-          Saw “Wallace & Gromit” with Mikey, Andy & Cheech. Andy & I kept laughing. I thought the movie was cute.

-          Diner with Mike, Cheech & Hons.

-          No school today.

Life is good. I can’t complain much about anything at all. I decided to be lazy in this entry because I’m feeling super restless & I had to upload about 70+ pictures, including the ones from Gina’s party. :o] Crazy, crazy. We only have three days of school this week, it rules. TSUNAMI BOMB BROKE UP.... I am ridiculously sad. They just drowned in the music business’ demands. This entry is all over the place & random. That’s fineeee. I’m reading “Choke” by Chuck Palahniuk and it kicks my ass. I’m reading all of his books & I’m about half way there. Today I stayed home to read, be a bum & cuddle with my kitties. I’ve been tired lately. September went by fast. I can’t believe we’re into the second week of October already. I like this, I wish the weather were less wet.

Anywho: Awful Waffle sounded really fucking awesome at Starland. It was definitely their best show so far. CBGB’s was good, but this beat all. It was so cool to see all our friends there together. The Superspecs, Awful Waffle & Streetlight were most enjoyable for me. In the middle of Awful Waffle’s last song, ‘Bee Swat’,  I went to the bathroom because I felt like I was going to pass out & Kourt and Ash were in there [good thing.] & I sat down & poured cold water all over my face and I was literally steaming. It was so dang hot in that place. At one point, some of our crew had a circle going- just us. It was really cool & then during “I’m Gonna Pee on You, Ya Dumb Bitch”, I was doing my own thing and some Nazi-looking guy randomly pushed me down but my arms were grabbed & I was pulled back up and I went over and tapped on his shoulder and leaned in and said “Listen. This is a ska show. Not an ‘As I Lay Dying’ mosh pit, where it’s okay to push people for no apparent reason. You are an asshole.” I was pretty mad. He just kinda gave me the “bitch” look and didn’t really react. Whatev, man. The Superspecs only played one of their old songs off of Project H.A.N.D.S.O.F.F - “Listen Up” and it was so good to hear it. Now, they are called “The Specs” ... wtf man, they’re so different. Bruce Springsteen was there & when Mike & I confronted his body guard, he asked if it was Bruce & the guard replied “If that was Bruce Springsteen, do you think I’d be talking to you?!” We were like ohhhh kayyyy [it was him though] Mikey ended up meeting him later on during the night anywho. He & I were reeeeallly tired by the 4th song into Streetlight so we left early & his mom, my parents, Kourt & I went off to the Ocean Queen. That show has made its way to the Top Five Favorites List. Until next time. ♥

( Nobody's business if I walk, talk, make love, sing... but I'm able to love. )

Leaves are falling & soon enough, it will look like our world’s trees are on fire. Autumn really is one of my favorite seasons and it starts tomorrow. Now is when you will usually see me at my best. It always goes by smooth and fairly fast as it fades into the cold. School is going pretty good. I love Art II & Spanish class. As far as grades go, it’s not so bad. I practically owned on my summer work that I had less time to do than everyone else. I rushed through it & I ended up getting a 100 on my book review, as well as the ten current events. Mr. Plesniarski said that 15 people in my class got big, fat F’s. I felt pretty good. This entry will probably resemble something that’s I’d actually write in a private journal.

Sometimes I just shut the fuck up and look around me in school and eavesdrop on people’s conversations. A lot of the time, I don’t believe what shallow remarks people say. It’s ridiculous. [ie: I fucking kicked her ass. If she ever looks at me weird or just stares at me- I’ll punch her in the god-damn face.] They might as well say “I’m so tough.” Grow uppppp.

| We’re all heavy. |

I’ve been thinking with myself a lot. I am experiencing now how someone else’s problem could affect me, too. It’ll bring you down, sometimes more than it brings them down. It’s contagious in more than one way & they probably won’t realize it. We are like one & it is in my nature to watch out for them because we have each other’s back & support each other in all we do. It’s not such a bad thing because it’s consumed & pulled you under. Sometimes if you sit back and just watch, you’ll see things that you normally wouldn’t and it tends to be more effective than authentic experience... sometimes- not always.

Experience is not required when you have enough knowledge & have observed it close enough.

Today I had to write about how I’d be living my life when I’m older. I decided that I think about how wonderful it’d be to be on my own already. That’s not normal. I’m not really anywhere’s near that. I then decided that I would live in either a really cool apartment with a nice view in a good area or in a warm home with my love. I would have an artsy-fartsy room & I’d spend my day at an enjoyable job. After a day of work, I’d come home at night, order food, make food, or go out to dinner with my love & spend the night at home relaxing or out & about enjoying my time. I would rent movies a lot and have friends over for good company. There would be frames on the walls and bold colors with a simple lifestyle. It would be welcoming and for the days that I (we) get to my (our) selves, I (we) would listen to jazz all day and do whatever we felt like doing. I’d want a pet. Puppies are cool, so are lizards. I’ve had cats all my life & 2 fish & 10 hermit crabs, so change would be nice. Doggie is the perfect example for this puppy role. He’s cute, fun, jumpy and sweet. Music would be a big part of my life and there would only be one TV in the house. I would block solicitors from calling my house. I would throw Holiday parties and decorate for each season. My house would and will be sweet as hell, assuming I make it that far along the line.

This entry is pretty dang long. I’m not done yet. Mikey♥ came over the other day for a little while and we sat on the couch and made up songs about each other. I love when we just goof around like that. He’s the best, I love♥ love♥ love♥ love♥ him.  Then another day, everyone went to Joe’s house & hung out in the dark and jammed out to Queen & Divinity Destroyed. It was really funny. Then, we went to the park and played with stuff & went to Oscar’s Pizza. Then, we went bowling. Mike always owns me in bowling. Friday was the White Trash party at Mikey's. Good as always. :o] Seafood fest was on Saturday and instead of going, I had the house to myself, along with Mike, Kourtni, Amanda, Andy, Dave, & Stan. We went to the Beach Park by me and Kourtni “broke her twat.” Then, we went back to my house & Mike got picked up and Jim Blair, Lindsey, Hons & Cheech raided my house to kidnap Mike & blow up fireworks in Lake Riviera. Everyone stayed longer & we went on a late night Wawa run. Kourtni & Amanda spent the night & it was really a good time. My two favorite ladies. We fell asleep watching Return of Jafar and drinking our traditional Jammers. We woke up & I made them breakfast...... Monday night, I went to Barnes & Nobles by myself and ended up seeing Stan, Jim Blair, Ska Matt, Heather and Vitamin P. It was really weird. I never knew that many went there on Monday nights, haha. Joe took a picture of Mike & I at the park & it seriouslly sums up our relatioship. haha Just kidding, it's a really funny picture. I hope I get it soon... he doesn't have a computer. :oP I’m really excited for Friday & the weekend for 2+ reasons. :o]

LIFE. IS. GOOD. &. I'M. LOVING. IT.

(  summer evenings; autumn eves.  )

Summer is officially gone. I must say that it was and will always be one of my favorite summers of my time. Everyday I was surrounded by those I care about. Mostly the whole crew, but especially Mikey♥, Kourtni & Andy. I could not have asked for a more busy & fun few months. A lot has happened. I would do a whole big picture re-cap, but there are too many of them & I don't have that much time. If you're interested... I've only updated about 5 times this summer, they're all long updates however with tons of pictures. That was my summer.

The first two days of school were rough. They changed my schedule 3 times. It was ridiculous. The third time they got it kind of right, but it'll be fine. I don't feel like waiting in guidance again. First period is Geometry with Millerschoen with Jess Diaz & Kerry. Second is Art II with Amanda, Christine, Isabella, Joe & Sabrina- definitely one of my favorite classes. Third is Biology with Heather & Kerry. Fourth is Gym with Emilyn, KT, Gina, Heather & Karl. Fifth is English with Christine, Josh & Amy. Sixth is Spanish with Mikey♥ & Jess Faas- my teacher is broing but Mike & I always look at each other making stupid faces & laughing at FJ (he just says funny things sometimes), and of course- Jahbari always goes outside and screams "OH MRS. DUNHAMMM" and doesn't leave until she respons, or atleast waves. It's great. Seventh is lunch with Tiffany & Fratty Patty. It is small & quiet, but it sure is nice. Lastly, I have U.S Histroy I-Honors. It's awesome. My class is really fun with everyone and Mr. Plesniarski is the shit. He's one wacky teacher. Love it. Only one yucky thing: I'm getting sick. School is finally re-adjusting into my schedule. Life is going gooooood.


( Sprawled across the bed & we were dreaming... )

Today was One Year for Mikey & I and so we went to Red Bank & the boardwalk for a bit. It was a really nice day & we ran into some funny characters of people in Red Bank & laughed till we almost peed. We took pictures, but I'm too lazy. I love him so much, I can't even go on. Today was wonderful.

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

MY SCHEDULE. [ that might change.]

1. Geometry
2. Art II
3. Biology
4. Gym/ Lab 10
5. English II Honors
6. Spanish II
7. Lunch
8. US History II AP [ or honors?]

Got anything good?!

LIST TEN SONGS THAT YOU ARE CURRENTLY DIGGING. IT DOESN'T MATTER WHAT GENRE THEY'RE FROM, WHETHER THEY HAVE WORDS, OR EVEN IF THEY'RE NO GOOD, BUT THEY MUST BE SONGS YOU'RE REALLY ENJOYING RIGHT NOW. POST THESE INSTRUCTIONS, THE ARTISTS, AND THE TEN SONGS IN YOUR BLOG. THEN TAG FIVE OTHER RANDOM PEOPLE TO SEE WHAT THEY'RE LISTENING TO.

1) Total Hate 95 - No Doubt [self-titled]
2) Rotting Vampire Eyeballs - Tsunami Bomb
3) Crack Rock Steady - Choking Victim
4) Acid Rain - Dream Theater
5) Devil's Dance Floor- Flogging Molly
6) Flashlight - Parliament Funkadelic
7) Pardon My Freedom - !!! (Chk Chk Chk)
8) Edge of the Ocean - Ivy
9) Say Days Ago - The Used
10) There'll Come A Time - John Butler [trio]

contestedrevolt Stan
dimanche_amour Kourtni
chai_ Christine
fattie Abby
the_vitamin_p Vitamin P

Guess what bitches. TAG!!! You're it.

Today was one of those days that should never decease. I was expecting to go to Gamestop for a video game tournament... turned out to be bogus. Thus, Mike & I went to his house & hung out until just a little while ago. We're really spontaneous sometimes when things strike us and we don't ever change our minds or back out. It was really fun, funny, love-filled & just plain old good. ♥ I love days like these. The wilderness is now a good thing. Dad's band is out somewheres in Brick playing at a huge block party. I'm missing out, but that's alllright. I was only supposed to write 600 words for my summer packet, but my thoughts came up with 1,010 words. There is no way possible to make it shorter. I hate that, screw limits. I need to do 3 more current events & try to shorten my paper, & I'm done. PHEW. I can't believe school is like a week & a half away. I can't believe September 1st is 4 days away. I've got sweet plans. Dana, Vitamin P, Mikey & I go on lots of double dates. It's really a lot of fun.Well, I honestly don't have much more to say. Maybe I'll post all of those pictures from a ways back...


( That's all a stripper sees. )

A breeze comes in at night, anyone notice? & boy, does it feel nice. Fall'sa rolling in. I went to the boardwalk the other night with Mikey♥ & Stan. We stayed for quite a while & spent most our time on the fishing dock & Flashback arcade. Three sand sharks were caught & Mikey owned me in Ms. Pacman. Stan pretended to throw me over the pier & I screamed like a little girl. We went to White Castle & Wawa, and then settled on back to my house around 11. They didn't leave till 1:30. We just sat there talking with mom & stuff. Sometimes, it's days like that- that are the best. There's nothing like settled company.

World Inferno Friendship Society show was magnificent. The whole day before the show was spent as some backyard show that Awful Waffle was supposed to play, but most of us wanted to go see them @ the Bloomfeild Cafe, so we ditched it and went up there, just Mike, Ska Matt & myself. Good times. The crowd was awesome. Best part was: we got there and they were "sold out" and so we saw the lead singer of WIFS and we asked if there was any way to get in, he hesitated then said yes... we  ended up on their guest list and we got in, and we got in for FREE. It was great. Mike & I did the waltz, it was fun. We went to IHOP afterwards. [what else?] We got to Mike's house around 1 a.m only to see that Dogie was shaved :o[ That thing needs hair.

My short vacation to Rehoboth beach was really nice. We took the Ferry & I ended up taking Dramamine to make sure sea-sickness was something I would lack. Rehoboth is just like Point Pleasant. Big boardwalk with lots of tourist shops & the beach. Their sand came from dump trucks though, totally not natural. The first two days rained, but the last three were great. Rain made the sand muddy. We stayed away from the beach & lingered around on the 3rd floor of our hotel; there was a pool. We took a great Old Time Photo, I'll scan and post that soon enough. 

The last 3 days have been very productive days. Mom wakes me up every morning super early and jumps on me and drags me out of bed. Thursday it was shopping for clothes & all ... Friday was for the Flea Market @ Blue Claws & Route 70. I got some nice stuff. I love auctions & all that jazz. My room is almost done & I'm just about half way done with my current events for my Summer packet, and I'm doing okay on The Jungle. I actually am enjoying it. Upton Sinclair does nice work. Believe it or not, I almost want to be a vegetarian. I wish I didn't love chicken fingers so much. I stayed home yesterday and read a lot of The Jungle. My sister & her boyfriend came home from Cancun. Today I read some more & then went off to Eric's house with the usual & large crew. Eric's brother Kyle fed Alyssa's fish that she won at the boardwalk to his fish, apparently they devoured it. That must have been a horrific sight. Then, I went back to my humble abode.

(  & I'm watching porn in my hotel dressing gown. )

August: the last official month of summer. I'm excited for fall though, I love it so much; school to me was never so bad, but I like fall because it gets quiet & cool & needless to say; pretty. The only thing I can add to make everything wonderful is to keep what's on now & keep it running. I'm having fun, I'm loving & I'm laughing. I leave tomorrow early morning to catch the Cape May Lewis Ferry to Rehobeth Beach, Deleware. It's pretty there. It's a combination of New Hope PA, Providence Town MA & Ocean Grove NJ... there are lots of rainbow flags hanging everywhere too; I'm looking forwards to happy people & a bright town. Lots of shops, lots of water, lots of people. I'm only going for about 4 days though, I'm really just a home-body, but it'll be nice to get out of Brick Town for a few days.

Last night, I went to an Awful Waffle show with some of my favorites and then aftwards, Mikey♥, Emilyn & I went to Six Flags to go see Kool & The Gang, but they had already played at 7:00. We were really bummed, so we went out to eat with his mommy. Then we dropped Emilyn off & we came back to my house. The night before, Kourtni slept over after Ashlee's party. It was really great. We ate shrimp, italian bread & oil and watched Toy Story. We slept on a little recliner couch and around 4:30, her whole lower body was on me, so I moved to the big couch (BITCH♥).  she woke up at 8:00 and was like "Where's Melissa!?!" ... Today all I did was pack & clean up. Mikey is getting two teeth cavities filled. OOOOH! God, I haven't been to the dentist in a while. I'm avoiding it because I hate it so much & I know my outcome will be nothing but bad news. I need my wisdom teeth out, too. Maybe Mikey & I will get them out at the same time cause' we'll both be miserable & drooling with gauze hanging out of our mouths... what a pretty picture  :o] . I have Fourth of July & Birthday & Room & other pictures to post. I'll do that now. 

 
 
( Tear the roof off the motha sucka )

Almost a whole month went by. I don't believe that it's been that long since my last update. Doesn't really matter or anything; I'm just amazed how fast it went. A lot of awesome stuff has happened. I actually reunited with my cousins, saw KANSAS with Mikey, Dave & Andy, finally went to the beach, went to 3+ Awful Waffle shows, hung out with my Lindsey a lot, made penis shaped pancakes, saw Divinity Destroyed @ The Saint, saw Kaki King in Asbury Park @ Guitarbeque, and a bunch of other rad stuff. I got transferred out of History AP and went into Honors... I'm relieved. I couldn't handle it. WHADDUP MR.PLESNIARSKI!?!

Yesterday marked the very happy 11 months of Mikey & myself. ♥♥♥ I'm so happy & we have so much planned. He's my favoriteee. Kourtni came home & I don't think I ever missed her as much as I did. This entry is going to be flying all over the place cause it's been so long... that's fine. My ENTIRE body is sore... but I'm glad it is. Night swimming is the ultimate best. No one had bathing suits so we just ran in with what we had under our jeans & tee's. :o] It's the most fun anyone could ever have with some close friends. Day-vid left for Alaska... worst place ever today. I see Amanda Bernhardson more than I ever have before (except middle school) & it's the best. I re-did my room into the colors: black, white & lime green. It's friggen awesome. I'm in love with it completely. I have a ridiculous amount of pictures to post. I think I might have an End of the Summer party, kind of how my birthday was in the beginning... maybe I should have one to end it. Today, I went to the boardwalk with Mikey & Amanda & Tommy. & It was so great to see Amanda. <3 And yesterday was one of the most memorable nights of my summer; nevertheless, most memorable night ever. :o]

( I found love & I don't hide it. Life is a rollercoaster, just ride it. )

Happy Birthday to KC & I.

Today consisted of:
Eastside Bagels <333
Buying 400$ worth of food. (Bitches best be hungry tomorrow)
Buying cool stuff @ Target
Eating yum yums @ Old Country Buffet
Getting exactly what I wanted: Digital Camera. (old one broke)
KC's party
Dancing a whole lot, I felt like a big sack covered in sweat.
Pictures
Laugh, Laugh, Laughter.
The song Mikey sang on the car ride home to me, haha.
Plain old good times.

I'm pretty friggen pumped for tomorrow. :o] I'll post EVERYTHING as soon as all the madness stops. But then again, will it ever?! Until next time, me lovlies.

Hello, Summer.

My Birthday is tomorrow, I'm pretty pumped. There are so many great things going on so far. I went to the beach with Dana, Mikey, & Vitamin P on Monday. It was really nice. I was there for 6 hours, wearing a bathing suit only and OIL. I am terribly burned. Tuesday, my sister took me out for Chinese food, Mr. & Mrs. Smith movie (she's ridiculously hot) and then shopping. Last night, all of my favorite people in the world got together & went to Seaside Boardwalk. It was so much fun. Pat, Joe, Stan, Eric, Mike, Amanda & I went into the water. They all were splashing, threw Mike in, and then Mike decided to flip me over his shoulder into the water. It was surprisingly nice. I'd actually say around 70 degrees. The water there appears to be cleaner for some reason. Around 7:00, we all headed back to Mike's house. I looovvvveeeee himmm.♥♥♥ Mike, Pat & I were drenched and Kourtni, Emilyn & Andy weren't so it sucked for them. We got Chinese food & played tag?! I don't know man, lately we've all been doing little kid stuff. I don't mind though, haha. I have a lot of pictures to STILL post from the past three months, and new ones coming up too. Most of them are off of other people's cameras... but not for long. I asked for one for my Birthday because the other two broke. :o] I have a very busy week coming up. Tonight, for one of my Birthday thingies, Mikey is taking me to Reel Big Fish show. Tomorrow, I'll probably celebrate with family & then that night is the lovely KC's party. Sunday & Monday are my shindigs &  Tuesday is a show. Wednesday, I really hope to have pillow fights with Amanda, Tommy & Mike at 3:00 in the morning. Those are my favorite things. I made a top 10 list, I was dicussing it to Mike & Amanda the other day, it was pretty funny... I remember like 6 of them. I'll probably be updating a lot now. Be prepared. I'm going to post some of those old pictures. Forgive me if I've already posted them previously, I don't really have time right now to go through and look. 



( To love another as much as one can. )